if you're looking for a sign
whether you are feeling stuck, burnout, or you really just need that final push to start something, you've come to the right place. this is your sign. now go. read.
It’s October 11, 2021 at 2:34 am and I have realized that I am not happy with my life right now. I am 17 years old and I already feel like I’m failing at life. I know that I have my entire life ahead of me, but I’m still terrified that I’m not doing enough, that I won't be enough. I’m terrified that I’m not going to be able to do what I want in life. My first college applications are due on November 1 and I’m freaking out. I have a 3.0 GPA and most of the colleges I want to go to have an average GPA of at least a 3.6. I have started and erased so many college essays that I don’t know what to do with myself. And on top of freaking out about college essays, I just got back from touring colleges in California for 5 days and I missed 3 days of school. So now I have to catch up on all the work I missed, study for the 2 tests that happened while I was gone, and I have to get my body clock back on track since it thinks I am 3 hours behind the actual freaking time. Basically my life is all over the place and I don’t know what to do.
Now if what I just wrote about sounds just a little bit like your life right now, listen up. Who gives a crap about the future if it isn’t here yet. You need to start working on your life right now, you have to do everything you say you are going to do tomorrow, right now. Stop waiting and putting it off because if you keep doing that it’s never going to freaking happen. You said you were going to workout today so go workout! It doesn’t have to be for an hour, it could only be for like 10 minutes. The amount of time you do something doesn’t matter. The only thing that matters is that you get it done and feel good about it afterward!
I’ve suddenly realized (and I mean like just now as I was trying to go to sleep at 3:04 am) that because we as a human race are so afraid of doing anything outside of our comfort zone, most people never ever try anything new anymore! And it’s because of this that so many people are unhappy with their lives and how they are living. I want to major in journalism in college. Do I know how to really write anything? No I do not(hence the 5 or so started but not finished college essays). Am I going to let that stop me from pursuing my dream and figuring it out along the way? No it is not. Because I have decided right now that I am not going to let fear dictate my life anymore. I’m going to start doing everything I say I am going to do, even if it freaking terrifies me to do it. And you should too! It’s these fears that keep us from our dreams and prevents us from having the lives we deserve. If you are sitting in your room on your bed scrolling through Tik Tok or Instagram and seeing all these posts and saying to yourself “Damn I wish that was my life”
(p.s they are most likely fake and are made to look that way)
GET OUT OF YOUR FREAKING BED AND GO MAKE IT YOUR LIFE!!! You’ll never have that life by just sitting in your bed watching it through a screen.
NOW GO!!!
-TJ